First Love...

I was impressed the day I met her

I stayed around to get to know her,

and before long we had to part

I got back after a long break,

just to meet her once more,

this time again I had to leave

She was in my mind

for way too long

I had decided,

I want to be with her

and I then did

I came back again,

to be with her,

but this time around,

I am gonna stay forever

Yes she was my first

My true first love

I grew up with her

I learned my lessons,

while I was with her

I discovered myself,

while I was with her

She made me, me

She was there along

in my days of glory

and through all my down falls

I fell in love with the sea,

with rains, with sunsets,

with nights, with days and

all the beautiful things,

all this because of her

I learned how it feels to love

and to be loved

To care for someone

and to be taken care of,

while I was with her

So there I was

my heart full of love

and days full of hope

For she was there with me

Now the day has come

and so has my calling

I have to leave

And here I am about to,

Leave my first true love

Mumbai I’ll miss you…

Pleasure and the pain

For a moments pleasure

we endure years of pain

we never regret

we never complain

For the one who gives pain

is our very own

or so we believe

till they prove it otherwise

For our very own

we endure

even the whole worlds pain

‘coz it’s love

for our very own

When that pain nearly kills you

or sucks the life blood out of you

You’ll still endure

for its for our very own

All these while your pains

remains only yours

and a slight concern

to the close ones who know you

While your very own is blissfully ignorant

And the day your very own

comes ups to you

to say “Did I ask you to ?”

You can’t help but ask

“Why did I?”

That’s one question

you’ll never want to face

and even the pain of facing it

you’ll take it with a smile

For its Pleasure and the pain

from our very own…

Walk away

If there comes a day,

when you get what I say

I hope that day,

aint too far away

On that fateful day,

You’ll know what I say

and all I have been saying

right till today

Right on that day,

I would want to say

“Have it that way”

but I hope I can say it

That’s why I say,

Today is the day

Later the day is,

I might not say

what I really want to say

On that particular day

I don’t want you to pay

For what you didn’t say

right here today

For that fateful day,

may never come our way

If that’s the way,

I’ll have to walk away…

Tears of the sky…

The heavens turn dark

The sun light is over shadowed

The skies light up in flashes

And you know she is about to come

She makes you wait

and then comes down with a grace

people run for cover

but some just enjoy her presence

For some she is love

For some she is pain

For some she is depressing

For some she is trouble

But she touches all of us

I her own sweet way

In her grace lovers come close than ever

to steal a moment of a life time

For the ones who lost their love

Her presence is depressing and painful

For the ones who have seen her wrath

She is trouble that comes back every year

In spite of all this one can’t live without her

Nor can you live with her always

But her visits brings one back to life

And takes some when she is angry

Now I look up into the sky and wonder

when the tears of the sky will come down

So that I can hold her hands

and feel love in her presence…

Why…still…love…

She asks me why do I

still help her

still stand by her

still listen to all her crap

I look into myself and ask

why do you help ?

why do you stand by ?

why do you listen ?

I know only one answer

I love her…because…because…

No, there is no cause

I just love her

My love for her has no reason

My love for her has no logic

My love for her has no cause

My heart said and I just did

Love her…

When the world around and

she herself says its not worth it

My heart asks why not ?

For it’s impossible to convince it

with logic or reason

It can’t be taught

It can’t be forced

To forget or let go

For she was my true first

I have seen it in her eyes too

and that makes it more difficult

to forget and let go

or give up,

‘coz she is all that you wanted ‘once’…

Sleepless

I let her know that my heart beats for her

But for some reason she always brushed me off

I thought her heart was yearning for someone else

But I knew that someone never learned her value

The fall out was terrible,

She had gone in so much that,

She found it near to impossible to come out

She was in too deep to pull her out

I tried my best,

But all my love couldn’t pull her out

She never saw or never heard

How much my heart beats for her

For she was too messed up to look my way

The way out she found was,

reckless and painful,

She never cared as to what happened to her

and she never knew what happened to the ones who did

My heart wept and my heart bled

But all the while she slept,

without closing her eyes

I never slept in those nights

For her sleepless nights was also mine

And how can I sleep when she couldn't...

Let Her Know

The day I met her I felt,

she was just another girl

The more I got to know her I realized,

she is not just another girl

Her smile fills my heart with joy,

Her words feel like music in my ears

Her grace weakens my knees

And before I knew I had fallen for her

They say thoughts are like wild horses

that I realized now

The more I think about her

Deeper I fall for her

I try my best not to think too much

but the impression she left makes it hard

All these thoughts happen and

she doesn’t even know what I feel

I dread the idea of letting her know

For the fear of hearing a no

That ‘What if’ holds be back

But sooner or later I will have to let her know…