A Flower

She was a simple flower

when he first saw her

he kept passing by her

but never looked at her

Then came a day

when she was not there

and that was the day

when he had it all clear

Now he was seeing it,

the beauty in her

that he had

failed to notice

He searched for her

all around,

and to his relief

she was just right around

Now he was sure

he’ll never let go

of a real beauty

whom he almost let go

Her beauty was no skin deep,

it was a glow from within

Her fragrance was like,

a sweet smile on her face

No one knew it,

better than him

For that lit him up

on the worst of his days

She was the smile

that he wore on his face

Hers was the hand

that lifted him some days

She taught him

how to love others

and to live for them

but asked nothing for it

His life was his lesson

she taught him that

‘coz she had seen it

closer than any had

For all this he had

only his love in return

The love of a friend,

a life time of it

He wished to pluck

and keep her for himself

so that he could

give her a life time of love

But the thorns around

wouldn't just let him

For she was a flower

not just for him

But for many like and unlike him...

Friends...

We meet a lot on the way

We lose another on the way

Some leave an impression

While others leave a depression

All that’s left are the memories,

of the times that we were together

That keeps us alive,

in this mad mad world

The memories of the lost ones

and the time spend with the new ones

Some are just friends

while some are friends forever...

Addiction

Too much for too long,

and you get addicted

Be it love or lust, it’s the same

Longer you have it in your system,

harder it is to live without it

His addiction was a bit different

No it was not love nor lust,

nor was it behavioural

It was pain, the unlikeliest of them all

It was the pain she gave him

To start it was once in a while

Then it was a part of his life

like every now and then

There came a day when he had to quit

He went as far as he could,

but no distance was a remedy.

He always got back for another dose

For he couldn’t live without it

For he was addicted

addicted to pain,

the unlikeliest of them all

Was it his love for her,

or was he plain addicted ?

These he never found an answer

not until now...

Apart

All these years together

and now apart

Both by distance

and by heart

The closer I got

the farther she ran

I ran along for some miles

but then said it’s enough

Now it’s my time to walk

We both had our reasons

We both clung on to it

Pretty strong as we always do,

but in the end for a change

we didn’t have each other to cling on to

She had her reasons to keep me away

None I felt was good enough

My regret is we never gave it a shot

Hope she won’t say the same someday down the line...

Hope she aint burying it coz of some fear...

First Love…V 1.2…

She was my dream

She was my aim

and one fine day

She was my own

In her I found love

In her I found bliss

In her I found peace

In her I found me

In a way unknown to me

So it was but obvious

I fell for her

I fell for her charms

into her wide open arms

I said

Never will I leave

Never will I loose

Forever you are mine

Or that’s what I said

half a decade ago

now here I am

with just a day left with her

I cannot stop me

For it was my call

I wouldn’t stop

For I have to go

I just had to say

You made me, me

I never let you go

from the depths of my heart

For you are the one

my true first love

Mumbai my love…

First Love...

I was impressed the day I met her

I stayed around to get to know her,

and before long we had to part

I got back after a long break,

just to meet her once more,

this time again I had to leave

She was in my mind

for way too long

I had decided,

I want to be with her

and I then did

I came back again,

to be with her,

but this time around,

I am gonna stay forever

Yes she was my first

My true first love

I grew up with her

I learned my lessons,

while I was with her

I discovered myself,

while I was with her

She made me, me

She was there along

in my days of glory

and through all my down falls

I fell in love with the sea,

with rains, with sunsets,

with nights, with days and

all the beautiful things,

all this because of her

I learned how it feels to love

and to be loved

To care for someone

and to be taken care of,

while I was with her

So there I was

my heart full of love

and days full of hope

For she was there with me

Now the day has come

and so has my calling

I have to leave

And here I am about to,

Leave my first true love

Mumbai I’ll miss you…

Pleasure and the pain

For a moments pleasure

we endure years of pain

we never regret

we never complain

For the one who gives pain

is our very own

or so we believe

till they prove it otherwise

For our very own

we endure

even the whole worlds pain

‘coz it’s love

for our very own

When that pain nearly kills you

or sucks the life blood out of you

You’ll still endure

for its for our very own

All these while your pains

remains only yours

and a slight concern

to the close ones who know you

While your very own is blissfully ignorant

And the day your very own

comes ups to you

to say “Did I ask you to ?”

You can’t help but ask

“Why did I?”

That’s one question

you’ll never want to face

and even the pain of facing it

you’ll take it with a smile

For its Pleasure and the pain

from our very own…

Walk away

If there comes a day,

when you get what I say

I hope that day,

aint too far away

On that fateful day,

You’ll know what I say

and all I have been saying

right till today

Right on that day,

I would want to say

“Have it that way”

but I hope I can say it

That’s why I say,

Today is the day

Later the day is,

I might not say

what I really want to say

On that particular day

I don’t want you to pay

For what you didn’t say

right here today

For that fateful day,

may never come our way

If that’s the way,

I’ll have to walk away…

Tears of the sky…

The heavens turn dark

The sun light is over shadowed

The skies light up in flashes

And you know she is about to come

She makes you wait

and then comes down with a grace

people run for cover

but some just enjoy her presence

For some she is love

For some she is pain

For some she is depressing

For some she is trouble

But she touches all of us

I her own sweet way

In her grace lovers come close than ever

to steal a moment of a life time

For the ones who lost their love

Her presence is depressing and painful

For the ones who have seen her wrath

She is trouble that comes back every year

In spite of all this one can’t live without her

Nor can you live with her always

But her visits brings one back to life

And takes some when she is angry

Now I look up into the sky and wonder

when the tears of the sky will come down

So that I can hold her hands

and feel love in her presence…

Why…still…love…

She asks me why do I

still help her

still stand by her

still listen to all her crap

I look into myself and ask

why do you help ?

why do you stand by ?

why do you listen ?

I know only one answer

I love her…because…because…

No, there is no cause

I just love her

My love for her has no reason

My love for her has no logic

My love for her has no cause

My heart said and I just did

Love her…

When the world around and

she herself says its not worth it

My heart asks why not ?

For it’s impossible to convince it

with logic or reason

It can’t be taught

It can’t be forced

To forget or let go

For she was my true first

I have seen it in her eyes too

and that makes it more difficult

to forget and let go

or give up,

‘coz she is all that you wanted ‘once’…

Sleepless

I let her know that my heart beats for her

But for some reason she always brushed me off

I thought her heart was yearning for someone else

But I knew that someone never learned her value

The fall out was terrible,

She had gone in so much that,

She found it near to impossible to come out

She was in too deep to pull her out

I tried my best,

But all my love couldn’t pull her out

She never saw or never heard

How much my heart beats for her

For she was too messed up to look my way

The way out she found was,

reckless and painful,

She never cared as to what happened to her

and she never knew what happened to the ones who did

My heart wept and my heart bled

But all the while she slept,

without closing her eyes

I never slept in those nights

For her sleepless nights was also mine

And how can I sleep when she couldn't...

Let Her Know

The day I met her I felt,

she was just another girl

The more I got to know her I realized,

she is not just another girl

Her smile fills my heart with joy,

Her words feel like music in my ears

Her grace weakens my knees

And before I knew I had fallen for her

They say thoughts are like wild horses

that I realized now

The more I think about her

Deeper I fall for her

I try my best not to think too much

but the impression she left makes it hard

All these thoughts happen and

she doesn’t even know what I feel

I dread the idea of letting her know

For the fear of hearing a no

That ‘What if’ holds be back

But sooner or later I will have to let her know…